Fate And Friends

Life is strange. You've probably heard that before, but it really is. I mean when you start to think about it, everything that happens is strange. Why do things happen? Alright, I realise that is a big question and people have different kind of answers. Let's say you believe in God. In that case you may believe that God makes things happen, decides what is best for you. Or perhaps you accept the way things are, they simply just happen and that's it. 

I myself have spent quite a lot of time trying to figure out what I believe in, what my answer is. I don't believe in any kind of God. I cannot make myself believe that my decisions aren't my own. Neither can I accept things only because they are that way. I want to know why. Why do things happen?

Now, things could be pretty much anything, but the two words that make me write this post right now are love and friendship. Mainly friendship because I haven't yet experienced love in the way most understand it. So, friendship. We all have many kind of friends. There are our school mates, our parents' friends' children who we have known all our lives, hobby friends, and those friends who become so important that we would do anything for them. 

Some call them "best friends" which is alright, but if you have many - even a few - very close friends, how can you decide who is the best? Of course, if you only know one person who to call your best friend, it's understandable, but I have a few so called best friends, so they are simply Friends to me, with a capital F. The Friends, who will always be there for me no matter what.

My question here is, why have I met them? How is it possible that I have been able to find people so similar or different to me that we fit perfectly together? There's a girl I've known since I was nine, and we are so different that we complete each other. Same thing with my sister, we are similar and different at the same time but we know each other better than anyone else, and are so close that we know what the other is thinking without having to say a word. Then again one of my new school mates and I have so much in common that we get along very well and are becoming good friends. 

Finally, I have saved the best for last. I'm not saying he is the best of all my Friends, but our friendship is something so extraordinary that I can't help but wonder what my life would be like if I didn't know him. You see, we have never met in real life, we're "internet friends". And that's what amazes me. We are friends only because I happened to be bored and happened to find his profile while browsing the internet, only because I happened to like his profile and thought sending him a message would be fun, only because he bothered to reply. What if I had decided to go out with friends that day? If he had thought my message was stupid and not worth answering?

Well, I'll never find out because neither of those things happened. He replied, we started chatting and now I have a 'best friend' who lives 1500 miles away and though I probably won't meet him very soon, he is a part of my daily life. I trust him, know I can tell him anything without having to think whether it will scare him away or not, and for some strange reason he truly cares about me and makes me feel safe. He's like the big brother I never had. 

I'm starting to sound too cheesy so I better stop, but what I'm saying is your friends are your family, and you're allowed to remind them of that. It's obvious you care about them but saying it aloud is a whole different thing, it makes everyone happy. Love your friends and let them know how much they mean to you. That's all.

Tiia