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Love.

It's something you have to experience before you know what they talk about. It's true when they say love isn't always like a dream. It's not all roses, kisses and smiles. Love hurts. When you see your loved one hurt, it's physical pain you feel. You feel uncertain at times. Not knowing what will happen in the future scares you.

But it's also true when they say love is all you need. Love makes you feel alive. It's easier to conquer almost anything when you have that someone to rely on. Time flies by when you're with them. You can't believe your luck, what have you done to deserve such devotion?


It's realistic love that makes my day. I don't care about the roses and romantic poems, they're nice but discussing the menú of the day, philosophical questions or simply how our day has been is perfect. All I need is him. The one who makes me happier than anyone.

Don't let go

What a summer. Have to admit that I was going to write a bit more often, but my parents dragged me to our summer house - and obviously we didn't have internet connection over there. Anyway, I still had a great summer!

First of all, I loved the weather. Finnish summer is typically rather cold and rainy, but not this time. The heat lasted for weeks and it was almost like being in another country, like I said, we aren't used to weather like this.

Secondly, my taste of music has been extremely weird this summer. I normally listen to The Script, Copeland, Amy MacDonald or 30 Seconds to Mars... or anything really, but not the mainstream music. However, I kept listening to Taio Cruz's "Break Your Heart", Adam Lambert's "If I Had You" or Lady Gaga's "Alejandro" over and over again. And I don't even like those songs? I guess it's just that they're great 'background music', you don't really have to pay attention to songs like that, you just listen.

Oh, there's one thing I'll never forget: I recorded my first song ever! I went to this art camp in the beginning of August and some guys there wrote the 'theme song' of the camp. And they wanted me to sing it. :) It was a great experience and I was really excited after it - and it doesn's sound bad at all!

I also travelled quite a lot, around Finland though. I visited cities I've never been to before, which was nice, and we even went to Tallinn for a day. For those who haven't been to Tallinn (the capital of Estonia), go there as soon as you can. It's a beautiful city, one of my favourites.

Even though I enjoyed this summer, I don't mind going back to school tomorrow. It'll be nice to see friends again, remember what day it is and know you're learning something new every day. I know I'll be complaining about the piles of homework and stress after a few months, but oh well. Right now I miss the daily routines and want them back.

Wish you a good year, good to be back again!

Valitsen yhden meren ja oudon veneen

I found this song from Spotify last night and listened to it a few times wondering why it sounded so familiar. I had never listened to Johanna Kurkela before and didn't even like any other songs from her newest album, but this one was really beautiful. Then I noticed it sounded a bit like a Nightwish song and reminded me of The Islander and Creek Mary's Blood. Why? My question was answered when I googled "Satojen merien näkijä": the writer of the song is Tuomas Holopainen. As I did some more research I also found out that Kurkela has recorded two songs with Sonata Arctica; No Dream Can Heal A Broken Heart and Deathaura, both from The Days Of Grays.

Haha no wonder I liked it so much, Holopainen is a great artist and I admire him, and I've heard Kurkela sing on Sonata Arctica's album. Now I just need chords for this song but can't find them anywhere... Oh well, I'll come up with something. Wonder if anyone else likes this song, it's one of my favourites at the moment.

Tiia

Your hopes, your dreams, your everything

Summer summer summer! Again. The year has gone by so fast, I can still remember the things that happened last summer and now I have 2 weeks of school left... and then, freedom! Thought I'd post some of last summer's photos here, just to go share, so here's the Epic Summer vol 1 :

partying, put on some make-up and go!

jump! sunny days and no worries ♥

exploring, the higher you climb, the more you see.

fell in love with travelling, London and Edinburgh ♥

yes, I like trees, but the point here is having fun!

+ friends

+ msn all night long

+ random things

I ♥ SUMMER

I'm sure this one will be just as epic as last year, maybe even better!

Tiia

I Just Need You Now

I hate arguing. I mean I don't know about you, but shouting and all that has always made me feel very uncomfortable. And some people actually enjoy it... I don't get that.
I understand that everyone can be annoying sometimes and we all have bad days, I also know some arguments are inevitable. E.g. with your friends, if you've known them for years it's rather strange if you've never had a single argument.

And I think you're supposed to fight with your siblings and parents, my sister and I used to yell at each other all the time when we were younger. These days we rarely argue but when we do, we say things that would make anyone else cry and truly hate us. But we're sisters and know that the other barely knows what she's saying and definitely doesn't mean any of it.

For me it's different with friends though, I know arguing is a part of every friendship but I still hate it. Granted, I can be mean if I'm in the mood and if you manage to piss me off then I will be pissed off. But I envy those who can argue and not cry at the same time because I'm usually the first one sobbing.
Especially if it's my dad I'm fighting with (just a random note lol). All he needs to do is raise his voice a little bit and I burst into tears... That's probably because we both hate arguing so much, and I guess it's better to end it quickly.

Oh and when it comes to apologizing and making up after the fight, my friends know I'm far from unforgiving. Actually, I'm just not capable of hating anyone for longer than 15 minutes. I'm a crappy sulker and it's pretty easy to make me smile/laugh.

Have been listening to this song all afternoon, enjoy.



Tiia

That song playing in your head over and over again

Right so I haven't updated my blog in a month, apologies for that. I've been so busy doing nothing that I couldn't be bothered to sit down even for a few minutes and write a short post. There you go, the truth. For some reason I always end up doing nothing yet there're so many things I should do.

To be fair though, I did choose classes for next year and it looks like I'll be studying maths (advanced mathematics.. ugh), history and languages, Spanish, English, Swedish and Finnish. Fun... No but seriously, those are pretty much the subjects I'm interested in, except for maths. I love history and have always been good at learning languages. Hmh so I know what my favourite subjects are but I still have no idea what to do after high school. 

I mean yes I've been thinking about going to England for a year but what will I do after that? Yes, uni is an obvious option and that's where I'll go but, and this is the main question, what do I want to be when I grow up? What should I do, where should I go? I had a perfect plan but it doesn't work anymore so I'll have to come up with something else. But what? What what what? Haven't got a clue. 

Oh well, I have two years, no, three years to decide so I'm not going to panic.. yet.

Besides it's sunny outside and I'm going for a walk. Summer will be here soon, can you believe it? Eeee only a month of school left and then, Epic Summer vol 2, can't wait!

Tiia 

Vacuum On The Dancefloor

First things first; the title of today's post. My sister and I have been listening to Cascada and my sister decided to sing along to Evacuate The Dancefloor... She simply misheard the lyrics and now it's Vacuum On The Dancefloor. Works for me though, after all we have been cleaning up the house and dancing.


There's something about sunny days. That's why I love spring, the winter in Finland is long, so after all that snow and endless darkness a bit of sunlight makes everyone happier. Sunny days, sunny days, it's a sunny day today. That's great, because it means I'm having a good day.


This morning wasn't so great to be honest, I woke up just to notice I had the headache from hell. It took a couple of hours until I was able to do anything. But other than that today has been great. Like I said, I've been dancing around the house and everybody knows that's fun. I played the piano and sang with my sister, she played the guitar and you should hear us, we make a great duet! I love having a musical family.


Also, I'm making a list of places I need to visit. You know, I have a plan: I'll travel around the world when I've finished high school/sixth form, whatever you want to call it. So far I have these countries on my list:
England
Scotland
Italy
Germany
France
Spain
Israel
Belgium
Norway
China
Japan
Australia
USA
Malaysia
Canada

Sounds good, eh? Oh and for the record, I am not planning to visit all these places right after finishing school, unfortunately I'm not a millionaire. But they're on my list so I'll visit them some day! 

Right, time for a walk. Enjoy your holidays!

Tiia

Till King of The Jungle Calls My Bluff

Whoa. The first feverless day for almost two weeks, you can only imagine how great this feels. Well, mainly weird, because I've been ill for so long that I got used to it. The disadvantage of feeling better is wanting to do things, now that I don't feel like dying I want to go out, see my friends, sing, bake a cake and a million other things, but I can't. I still need to rest and give myself time to recover.

So I have done absolutely nothing today. I slept till noon, lay in bed for a few hours, read a book and watched a film. And stared out the window hoping I could go for a walk. Will have to study maths later, I don't even want to know how much I've fallen behind at school... Oh well.

The book I read was By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept by Paulo Coelho. Coelho is one of my favourite authors and I'm completely in love with his writing style. His novels are so full of life and every one of them seems to change me just a tad. They also remind me of the fact that I'm young and can do anything I want. Have read The Zahir, Veronika Decides To Die and By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept so far, am about to read Brida soon.

Also, since I listen to music 24/7 I'm always looking for new bands and artists to listen to. My latest discovery is Marina and The Diamonds, a Greek-Welsh singer, and I'm obsessed with her single "Mowgli's Road", love it.



Laters,
Tiia

Fate And Friends

Life is strange. You've probably heard that before, but it really is. I mean when you start to think about it, everything that happens is strange. Why do things happen? Alright, I realise that is a big question and people have different kind of answers. Let's say you believe in God. In that case you may believe that God makes things happen, decides what is best for you. Or perhaps you accept the way things are, they simply just happen and that's it. 

I myself have spent quite a lot of time trying to figure out what I believe in, what my answer is. I don't believe in any kind of God. I cannot make myself believe that my decisions aren't my own. Neither can I accept things only because they are that way. I want to know why. Why do things happen?

Now, things could be pretty much anything, but the two words that make me write this post right now are love and friendship. Mainly friendship because I haven't yet experienced love in the way most understand it. So, friendship. We all have many kind of friends. There are our school mates, our parents' friends' children who we have known all our lives, hobby friends, and those friends who become so important that we would do anything for them. 

Some call them "best friends" which is alright, but if you have many - even a few - very close friends, how can you decide who is the best? Of course, if you only know one person who to call your best friend, it's understandable, but I have a few so called best friends, so they are simply Friends to me, with a capital F. The Friends, who will always be there for me no matter what.

My question here is, why have I met them? How is it possible that I have been able to find people so similar or different to me that we fit perfectly together? There's a girl I've known since I was nine, and we are so different that we complete each other. Same thing with my sister, we are similar and different at the same time but we know each other better than anyone else, and are so close that we know what the other is thinking without having to say a word. Then again one of my new school mates and I have so much in common that we get along very well and are becoming good friends. 

Finally, I have saved the best for last. I'm not saying he is the best of all my Friends, but our friendship is something so extraordinary that I can't help but wonder what my life would be like if I didn't know him. You see, we have never met in real life, we're "internet friends". And that's what amazes me. We are friends only because I happened to be bored and happened to find his profile while browsing the internet, only because I happened to like his profile and thought sending him a message would be fun, only because he bothered to reply. What if I had decided to go out with friends that day? If he had thought my message was stupid and not worth answering?

Well, I'll never find out because neither of those things happened. He replied, we started chatting and now I have a 'best friend' who lives 1500 miles away and though I probably won't meet him very soon, he is a part of my daily life. I trust him, know I can tell him anything without having to think whether it will scare him away or not, and for some strange reason he truly cares about me and makes me feel safe. He's like the big brother I never had. 

I'm starting to sound too cheesy so I better stop, but what I'm saying is your friends are your family, and you're allowed to remind them of that. It's obvious you care about them but saying it aloud is a whole different thing, it makes everyone happy. Love your friends and let them know how much they mean to you. That's all.

Tiia

A Castle Can Only Have One King

Has anyone seen a film called The Last Castle starring Robert Redford? I had never even heard of it until I found it yesterday, and because I was so bored I thought I'd watch it. And I did.

The plot in a nutshell: A famous and highly respected General has become a prisoner and is transferred to a military prison run by a notorious Colonel, the villain of the story. The General doesn't like what he sees and decides to teach the Colonel a lesson. What does he do? Plans a genius uprising and takes over command of the castle (the prison is a castle).
Voilá, a film full of heroes, villains, action and wonderful team spirit. Good people are killed, bad people are killed, eventually the good win but their real hero, General Irwin dies because Colonel Winter - who is a coward, let's all hate him, shall we - shoots him.

I kind of liked The Last Castle but it definitely wasn't the best film I've seen. It was quite good, but predictable, you always knew what was going to happen before it did, though, maybe I've just watched too many war films. On the other hand, who doesn't love/admire/know/like Robert Redford? I mean that alone should be a reason good enough to watch a film, so I can't complain, right?

Tiia

Please Don't Stop The Rain

Since I'm trapped in my own home and have nothing better to do, I thought I'd start another blog - this time in English. You know, just in case some of you non-Finnish speakers would like to read it. To be completely honest though, I'm not doing this only for you guys. I simply like writing in English and - as some may have noticed - I'm a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to learning languages, so this is a good way to improve.

The title of this post, Please Don't Stop The Rain, is a song by James Morrison and I am addicted to it. By addicted I mean I've been listening to it for hours now. The lyrics don't have much to do with my mood, but they actually explain the title of my blog:

"You see life is a crazy thing,
There'll be good times and there'll be bad times
And everything in between."

You see, at first I tried to translate the title of my Finnish blog into English, but it would've been something like Life And Stuff, and that doesn't sound too poetic, does it? And when it comes to the madness of life, I think Mr. Morrison is absolutely right. Hence the title.

Anyway, I'm starting to feel quite terrible again, so this is the end of the first post of this blog. Shall write again soon.

Tiia